FEELING OF FIRST LOVE :) :)

First love is always an unforgettable part of your life - It will always be inseparable form heart -The memories it leaves is something from which you can never move on  even when have moved on from your relationship . Its that fragrance which clings to you till your life time . Its something which you can't get it off even if you want too. I mean all the first things in life are really special ,like first job ,first rains etc but first love is some thing which is unexplainable :) It would be the most beautiful part of anybody's life :)


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 The first feeling of being with someone is eternal
 That first feeling of security ,when walking down the streets in winter night with him
 That feeling when his one good morning text can make your whole day
 That moment when the front seat of his car is just reserved for you
 That feeling when he suddenly holds your hand while crossing road,and you just want that moment to pause there
 That feeling when he is not afraid to stand by you through your worse
 That feeling when he assures you that he will be with you till your life
 That cute feeling when sometimes he carries your shopping bags getting over his ego
 That feeling when he gets possessive when some tries to flirt with you
 That feeling of wearing his jacket
 That feeling of being with a person who don't care about how you look
 That moment when he sings just for you 
 That feeling when he says don't worry, No matter what I am always there for you 
 That feeling of getting drenched in rain with him
 That feeling when you know nothing can go wrong as long as he is with you 
 That feeling of changing for him and that cute moment when he tries to change for you
 And That most pure feeling of having somebody ,whom nobody can share.
 He is just and just for you :) :)

An encounter with early morning rains :)

It was around early -early morning 6 ,and I was totally lost in my sweet dreams of  R.K   A.K.A  Ranbir kapoor :P  my well known crush :D :D - Well I am not a morning person at all. I can hardly and very badly wake up at 8am. After 18 years of hard core efforts by my mom ,now she has also realized that its just a waste of time to expect me to wake up early in the morning but to my knowledge Isn't 8 am early too and I can say that because I know some retards who wake up at 11 and 12 so shouldn't my mom  be proud of me that her always obedient and sincere daughter (yeah that's me :D )atleast tries to wake up at eight although that 8 mostly becomes 8:30 to quarter to nine but atleast I try :P Anyways we cannot explain or argue with mom. I hope she realizes my worth someday :P :D
So lets come back to the topic , it was around 6 am , I encountered the most beautiful moment of my life ,as you already know i was lost in the dreams of my RK and in my dream I was just about to fall and RK was just about to catch me but in meanwhile Some  rain droplets were escaping from my window and were directly landing on my face and It woke me up and the dream was over Sob* Sob* but that day I woke up without alarm clock but with the sound of rain and smell of mud was all over my home - believe me it was an divine experience-It was the most beautiful morning ever and I finally realized why mom says wake up early in the morning ,who knows it may give you some lifetime memories to cherish and yes it was certainly magical. I grabbed my hoodie ,it was quite cold and any how I love to wear hoodies ,so no matter what I just need a reason to wear them as in chennai's heat you get very less moments where you can wear your hoodies and sweaters ,so whenever I get that chance I grab it :D and just sat beside my window , and streched my arms outside ,raindrops were dancing in my palms ,it was just a site to cherish - I love rains but it was the first time when i am experiencing morning rains ,it was really a feel good experience just made a cup of hot chocolate and again sat beside the window , this was the time for just myself - only self thoughts -remembering all good goody moments with friends and family and smiling like an idiot.Thinking if life can just pause here.

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This is the season of love as some people say and it happened to be the same with me ,even i falled in love ,No no don't get me wrong ,Yes i falled in love but with nature :D  Just thinking all the sweet thoughts with those naughty little rain droplets still falling on my face and other dancing on the earth - this experience was amusing , and its proved even nature can give you sweetest lifelong memories. It  was almost seven and  I was still beside my window and was writing this whole experience in my dairy to my surprise I was so lucky that there was sunrise along with rain -Warm sunrays entering directly in my home make my home more bright and my mood too :D :D I don't know it may sound funny and some people may even go whats so new in this but for me it was the most awesome experience and so penned down each and every moment to preserve and cherish it for a life time.

I think its gonna be a never ending wait

Waiting for some one is not easy and its gonna be more worst  when you know that your wait can take your lifetime. Yet you choose to wait ,why ? because for you that person is more worthy than your lifetime wait.
You know that those beautiful memories which you lived together is enough for your whole life to keep your doors open for that person . Although its really painful because ,you can't even tell that person that your wait for him is really taking your life. You can't even explain him the spasm ,you go through when he is not around. And you do all this for his dreams ,because you know its selfish to make him sacrifice his dreams and even harder when you know what his dreams mean to him. You don't want become a hurdle between him and his achievements.
But you also know that this is taking him away from you and you know at a certain point, its gonna affect your relationship badly but still your love for that person makes you stay lip sealed . Even your faith in him starts slowly fading but those memories ,those promises will not let you tear apart that soon .
But at some point of time you will also think , if that person loves you so much,
Why don't he understand the paroxysm which you are going through?
Why can't he envisage that his dreams are slowly breaking you from inside ?
Why don't he realize, what worst you are enduring without him ?
Why he is too stubborn to look beyond his dreams ?
Why don't he visualize ,what's being there on your side ?
For you ,he his your everything but,
Why you are still unaware about what's your place in his life ?
You know if you say ,he will leave everything and comeback to you ,but ,
Why can't he realize all these without saying ?
Why you are supposed to say and explain him everything ?
Why can't he understand your silence ?
And some times it makes you think ,
Will he'll ever be able to understand you beyond your words ?

Today its again raining outside...
All i can wish now is, you to be by my side. 

This season used to be so beautiful with you ...
All now it reminds me is only of the pain ,which i went through.

You promised me that you'll make every path of my life worthwhile ...
But I never knew ,along with you ,you will even take away my smile. 

I know that you are never unfaithful to me ...
But in between your other commitments you lost "us" from you & me.

Still I can feel your essence in this aroma of rain ....
But it makes me sometimes think that, waiting for you is really nothing but vain?

Thanks for coming in my life :) :)

So, I really dont know what to write  about friendship ,because i came to know what friendship means from some extraordinary species. Before meeting them my life use to revolve around me and my family. Till my high school i only had one best  friend , an she was so helpful in every aspect of my life that i never felt ill be needing some one else  because i believe in a saying have one good friend rather than 1000 fake friends ,so thats it -she was all ,she knewed all my secrets ,i used to share everything with her -thats it life was really cool - i never felt i must be having a gang of friends  or something -all though there were other class mates too but never got close with anyone -I am kinda reserved person , i need my own time ,my own space to get familiar ,i can't get that easily involved ,i love to make friends but need my own time to get mix with them. and i even hate back bitching people too ,so really choosy about making friends So that was all but really friends are the most important part of life learnt when "she" my best friend got married and settled out of town ,now that was the worst part.although no one can fill her space in my life, but it was the time to create space for some other people too - It was the time to get the college admissions- -haha- official place to make friends and hangout -was so damn excited-new place and new friends  -but in my life nothing goes as planned - was just about to get my admission forms  ,there comes a job offer -and it was so good that i was convinced that i have to do  this job. So college admission form became trash and went into a dust bin -And here  in job atmosphere everybody so involved in their own work that they  have no time even to speak to some one else so no frnzz here too but now have some really good colleagues here -the only best part here in this job was facebook - yeah when i joined here i never knew facebook existed also ,but slowly and steadily got addicted to it,all though people say fb frnzz are not real ones and wont be able to help you in your problems, they are fake and etc stuff - but for me the whole scenario was different - i really got good friends here -its almost been two years and they are still the best part of my life - they are always there for me when i need - to solve my problems , to make me smile at my worst days ,talking with them can make my day ,they have really became best of my frnzzz , i used to be so upto me but they thot me some really wonderful lessons of my life ,they accepted me the way i am -  today really wanna dedicate this poem to all of my friends who on otherside have became a part of my life .....i know this is not that good but can't find more words to write down -
 You people came in my life without any reasons
And I know ,you all are gonna be with me forever in all the seasons 

No matter how much i feel low or bad 
You are always there to turn my mood happy form sad    

I know with my stupid talks sometimes i may bore you to the core 
Still I know You will always be there by my side and that's what i adore 

you can always make my day more bright 
And  I never know when you all became such inseparable part of my life :)


From unknown to friends ,from friends to best friends ,from best friends to family were our evolution trends ,
I don't know were life will take us ,but i am sure even if we met again after a long break ,we know we will always be the best of friends :) :)

HIS LETTER OF REGRET :(

All he left behind was a letter and a life full of regrets :( 

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Today I am realizing why without saying anything  you ,silently left ……

I am sorry but, I never wanted to be your life’s worst regret

I don’t know when the  journey of “you and me” turned to “we”, but ,It happened for all good,

And I don’t know how passing time made me that rude

I lived a beautiful time of my life along with you

But today I realized that I don’t deserve to be your beau

I have always hurted you by my words and behaviour

And you expected that all life ill be your saviour

Today I regret for all the tears I gave

And for all the broken promises which once I made

I don’t know how I gave you so much pain

And made your eyes all night rain

I realized all this things only when you left

All now I can do is a life long regret

I don’t know if ever again paths of our life will cross or not

But the only thing I wanna say you is that I love you alot

If fate lead us to meet somewhere in the road of life ,this is  just I  wanna say you

Please come back to me ,I promise that ill change for you

THOSE DAYS ...........

Today sitting near the window,I think how times have changed .........
It was the same rainy season ,I remember how you used to come around with a cup of coffee
you always knew this season make me feel low , but u also knew how to bring a smile on my face :)
Today remembering those days

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Those days when it was your guitar and my lyrics

Those days when there were my sudden mood swings ,but you always used to stand by me

Those times when I used to feel low ,and your those little efforts to make me smile

Those times when the poetry was yours and words in it  were mine

Those time when your happiness used to be the reason of my smile 

Those days when tears were mine and the tissue to wipe them away was yours

Those days when our relationship was like shoes and laces ,without each other ,we were incomplete

Those days when we we used to live for each other

Those days used to be so special ,still tears are mine and memories are yours,the only diffrence is you are not here with the tissue to wipe them away :'(

Still i am thinking of those days ........sitting near the same window ,there are rains, there is coffee but the only thing missing is you :(

A Must Must Must Read Story :- (Its an Important thing to Learn)

Dear All,

THIS MESSAGE SHOULD BE AN EYE OPENER TO ALL OF US......


Subject: Letter written by a wife after her husband's death in an accident
This is a practical advice by someone who has unfortunately experienced this. Must read.


LETTER WRITTEN BY A WIFE AFTER HER HUSBAND'S DEATH IN AN ACCIDENT

"Few things I learnt after my husband's death:-

We always believe we will live forever. Bad things always happen to others.

Only when things hit us bang on your head you realise... Life is so unpredictable....

My husband was an IT guy.all techie.And I am a chartered accountant.Awesome combination you may think.

Techie guy so everything is on his laptop.his to do list. his e-bill and his bank statements in his email. . He even maintained a folder which said IMPWDS.wherein he stored all login id and passwords for all his online accounts.And even his laptop had a password. Techie guy so all the passwords were alpha-numeric with a special character not an easy one to crack.Office policy said passwords needed to be changed every 30 days.So every time I accessed his laptop I would realise it's a new password again. I would simply opt for asking him 'What's the latest password' instead of taking the strain to memorise it.

You may think me being a Chartered Accountant would means everything is documented and filed properly. Alas many of my chartered accountant friends would agree that the precision we follow with our office documents and papers do not flow in to day to day home life. At office you have be epitome of Reliability / Competent / Diligent etc but. at home front there is always a tomorrow.

One fine morning my hubby expired in a bike accident on his way home from office.. He was just 33.His laptop with all his data crashed.everything on his hard disk wiped off.No folder of IMPWDS to refer back to.His mobile with all the numbers on it was smashed.But that was just the beginning. I realised I had lot to learn.

9 years married to one of the best human beings.with no kids.just the two of us to fall back on..but now I stood all alone and lost.

Being chartered accountant helped in more ways than one but it was not enough. I needed help.His saving bank accounts, his salary bank accounts had no nominee.On his insurance his mom was the nominee and it was almost 2 years back she had expired. but this was just a start.. I didn't know the password to his email account where all his e-bill came.I didn't know which expenses he paid by standing instructions.

His office front too was not easy. His department had changed recently.I didn't know his reporting boss name to start with.when had he last claimed his shift allowance.his mobile reimbursement.

The house we bought with all the excitement.on a loan.thought with our joint salary we could afford the EMI.when the home loans guys suggested insurance on the loan.we decided the instead of paying the premium the difference in the EMI on account of the insurance could be used pay towards prepayment of the loan and get the tenure down.We never thought what we would do if we have to live on a single salary.So now there was huge EMI to look into .

I realised I was in for a long haul.

Road accident case. so everywhere I needed a Death certificate, FIR report, Post Mortem report. For everything there were forms running into pages.indemnity bonds.notary.surety to stand up for you.No objections certificates from your co-heirs..

I learnt other than your house, your land . your car, your bike are also your property... So what if you are the joint owner of the flat.you don't become the owner just because your hubby is no more. So what if your hubby expired in the bike accident.and you are the nominee but if the bike is in a repairable condition .you have to get the bike transferred in your name to claim the insurance.And that was again not easy. the bike or car cannot be transferred in your name without going through a set of legal documents. Getting a Succession Certificate is another battle all together.

Then came the time you realise now you have to start changing all the bills, assets in your name.Your gas connection, electricity meter, your own house, your car, your investments and all sundries. And then change all the nominations where your own investments are concerned.And again a start of a new set of paperwork.

To say I was shaken.my whole life had just turned upside down was an understatement.You realise you don't have time to morn and grieve for the person with whom you spend the best years of your life. because you are busy sorting all the paper work.

I realised then how much I took life for granted.I thought being a chartered accountant I am undergoing so many difficulties.what would have happened to someone who was house maker who wouldn't understand this legal hotchpotch.

A sweet friend then told me dear this was not an end.you have no kids.your assets will be for all who stand to claim.after my hubby's sudden death.I realised it was time I took life more seriously. I now needed to make a Will. I would have laughed if a few months back if he had asked me to make one.But now life had taken a twist.

Lessons learnt this hard way were meant to be shared.After all why should the people whom we love the most suffer after we are no more.Sorting some paperwork before we go will at least ease some of their grief.

1. Check all your nominations...
It's a usual practice to put a name (i.e in the first place if you have mentioned it) and royally forget about it. Most of us have named our parent as a nominee for investments, bank accounts opened before marriage. We have not changed the same even years after they are no longer there with us. Even your salary account usually has no nomination.. Kindly check all your Nominations.
- Bank Accounts
- Fixed Deposits, NSC
- Bank Lockers
- Demat Accounts
- Insurance (Life, Bike or Car or Property)
- Investments
- PF & Pension Forms

2. Passwords..
We have passwords for practically everything. Email accounts, Bank accounts, even for the laptop you use. What happens when your next in kin cannot access any of these simply because they do not know your password... Put it down on a paper.

3. Investments.
Every year for tax purpose we do investments. Do we maintain a excel sheet about it. If so is it on the same laptop of which the password you had not shared. Where are those physical investments hard copy.

4. Will.
Make a Will. I know you will smile even I would.had I not gone through all what I did.It would have made my life lot easier.a lot less paperwork.I wouldn't had to provide an indemnity bond, get it notarised, ask surety to stand up, no objections certificates from others...

5. Liabilities.
When you take a loan say for your house or car.Check out on all the what ifs.what if I am not there tomorrow.what if I loose my job.Will the EMI still be within my range.If not get an insurance on the loan.The people left behind will not have to worry on something as basic as their own house.

My battles have just begun...But let us at least try and make few changes so that our loved ones would not suffer after we go.We do not know what will happen in the future.But as the Scout motto goes: “Be prepared

Some useful tips to waste your time in office :D

If you find it very boring in the office, here are some tips for u!!!!!!!!!

1. Form a detective agency to find out who is quitting next.
2. Make blank calls to your Boss.
3. Send mails from lotus notes (outlook)to your internet mail (and immediately get to the internet and see who reaches first, you or your mail?) and read them there, andnote down the time they take to reach there. Then do vice versa............. !!
4. Rearrange the furniture, i.e. flick someone else's chair just to irritate him/her.
5. Count your fingers (and toes if you still get bored).
6. Watch other people changing their facial ex-pressions while working and try changing your ex-pressions also.
7. Try to ask everyone or stretch status meetingsas longer as possible,
just by asking silly doubts. (IMPORTANT)
8. Make faces at strangers in office.
9. Have a three and half hour lunch; it's a big social occasion.
10. Learn to whistle.
11. Revise last week's newspaper.
12. Hold "How fast my computer boots" competitions.
13. Practice aiming the coffee cup into the dustbin.
14. Enhance your Literature skills. you can author "1001 innovative ways to waste your day" to help your colleagues.
15. Pick up the phone and dial non-existing nos.
16. Have work breaks in between tea.
17. Count maximum no of applications yourcomputer can open at a time.
18. For Win NT/95 users....Move things toRecycle bin and restore them..Then repeat this process. (very important).
19. Look at someone & try to imagine how (s)he might have looked when (s)he was 5 years old.
20. Read jokes and send jokes.
21. Make full use of the comfortable chair and table provided and take a nap

not my creation ...randomly found :) :) 

Must Read, A Thriller Story!!! (read it at ur own risk ,after reading u may want to kill me:P)

Once there was a bus conductor, who was very rude to his passengers.

One day a beautiful young girl, of around 18 years,tried to board the bus, but he didn't stop the bus.

Unfortunately the beautiful young girl came under the bus and died on the spot. Angry passengers took the conductor to the police station, who in turn took him to the court.

The judge was not at all impressed with him and gave him capital punishment.

He was taken to the electrocution chamber. There was a single chair in the center of the room and a single banana peel at one corner of the room. The conductor was strapped to the chair and high voltage current was given to him. But to everyone's amazement, he survived. The judge decided to set him free, and he returned to his profession.

After a few months, this time, a good looking middle aged woman tried to board the bus but the conductor didn't stop the bus. Unfortunately, this time also, the good looking middle aged woman came under the bus and died on the spot.

Again angry passengers took him to the police station, who in turn took him to the court. The judge took one look at the conductor and gave him capital punishment. The Bus conductor was taken to the same electrocution chamber where there was a single chair in the center of the room and a single banana peel at one corner of the room. He was strapped to the chair and high voltage current was given to him. This time also, to everyone's amazement, he survived. The judge decided to set him free, and he returned to his profession.

A couple of months later, an elderly gentleman tried to board the bus.

This time the Bus conductor, remembering his earlier experiences, stopped the bus. Unfortunately the elderly gentleman slipped and died due to his
injuries. The conductor was taken to the police station and then to the court, to the same judge. Though he hadn't done anything wrong, but considering his past record the judge decided to set an example and gave him capital punishment.

The Bus conductor was again taken to the same electrocution chamber where there was a single chair in the center of the room and a single banana peel at one corner of the room. He was strapped to the chair and high voltage current was given to him.

This time he died instantly !!!!!!!!!!!

The question is why didn't he die on the first two occasions, but died instantly the third time??

Try to solve it yourselves. This is rather interesting and answer is perfectly logical. If necessary read the puzzle once again.

Still couldn't? Then see below.........

Think hard

C'mon .............

Tired....?

Wanna know the answer????

Ok........ here is the Answer............

During the first two times, the conductor was a Bad Conductor, therefore electricity didn't pass through him. But during the third time, he was a good conductor, so electricity passed through him freely and he died !!!! :D :P 
Don't swear at me .,, I am also looking for the guy who sent me this... and for the Banana Peel, someone must have removed it by now, don't bother :P :D

BERMUDA TRIANGLE MYSTERY SOLVED...!!

Computer studies of ocean floors around the world, particularly the area known as The Bermuda Triangle, reveal evidence of massive methane explosions in the past. For years, believers in the paranormal, aliens, and other outlandish theories pointed to the the disappearance of ships and aircraft as an indicator of mysterious forces at work in the “Devil’s triangle.” Scientists have finally pointed the rest of us to a more plausible cause.

The presence of methane hydrates indicates enormous eruptions of methane bubbles that would swamp a ship, and projected high into the air- take out flying airplanes, as well.

Any ships caught within the methane mega-bubble immediately lose all buoyancy and sink to the bottom of the ocean. If the bubbles are big enough and possess a high enough density they can also knock aircraft out of the sky with little or no warning. Aircraft falling victim to these methane bubbles will lose their engines-perhaps igniting the methane surrounding them-and immediately lose their lift as well, ending their flights by diving into the ocean and swiftly plummeting.

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