Friday, September 28, 2012

A musing :)

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Moving the darkness like kohl ,from the pillows of snowy white mountains a sun raised its head and saw that on the hills of someones heart there is a season of  love.

On the stems of the memories there are innumerable flowers of past which has started giving out its mesmerising fragrance.

Some unsaid and unheard wish which is still partly in sleep has started rubbing its eyes and it sees that flowing like a river, life is new in its every wave.

Remembering that some one once said that on the lap of life there is never ending love and there is also a long wait for someone too.


And it waves off by the silent feeling that on barren land of someones heart soon there is gonna be a rain of love. :) :)  







Wednesday, September 26, 2012

SOME REGRETS.........


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We met ,we fell for each other and we fall apart too.You became my dream and that dream which I saw with open eyes. But now all we have is a miles of space in between us.Still there are some unknown threads which are tying me to you ,still I see the dreams of both you & me to be together. I don't know how should I tell you about those feelings which are still alive some where in my heart,but please don't get me wrong,for your sake I've tried and I've tried hard to completely let you free.But still there is something which binds you and me.May be my eyes can explain what my heart feels because I am unable to find words to explain it . I don't know was it your talks ,your smile or your first touch which made me fall for you or it all happened after you left -please don't ask me I have no idea about it. I know that you tried and tried your best but may be it was my insecurities which didn't let me speak my heart and I still regret that why I didn't said what I felt for you - Why I didn't said yes,even i feel the same for you.

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

VACUITY

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The shine of moon is slowly fading
The twinkle of stars is vanishing too
Everything seems to be so dark and empty
And my love is asking your ego for some pity
My life has turned its face on me
And I am still lost somewhere in midst of your sea
The silence which I am hearing is loudest of all
I still remember you swore to handle me when I fall
How should I kill memories of every second I spend without you?
Or how should these few lines explain my unbearable spasm to you?
For your single answer I have longed for my whole life
But I wonder how my tears wouldn't even give you a strike
This night is darkest and longest of all I've ever seen
Still I hope you to be here, as you promised,you would have been

Friday, September 14, 2012

MEMORIES :) :)

People say childhoods are always special and yes they always are ,most of us have awesome childhood filled with our adorable sweet innocence and naughtiness. I have to say though I had born in a middle class family ,my parents have brought me up like a princess ,although i never got what i wanted but they always gave me what i needed and I never remember the day when I had long for something I needed. though my mom have been a strict mom but  I have always been a mama's girl (Still I am :P) , I still don't have a courage to go beyond her words (Not because of fear but due to respect , I respect her to the core ) ,I know how how much she has went through to bring me up. So where were we ? ya childhood and you know what guys, I just love children ,their smile can make my whole day ,even it may be a random kid ,I can start playing with them ,i just love kids - so was just asking my mom about my childhood yesterday - and she started with "please don't remind me of that" and I was like ?? ( I gave her an exclamatory look ) and said areeeeee c'mon  tell me na maa and she told me you were the naughtiest child I've ever seen in my whole life ,you showed me stars in day time and I was like LOL. I  told "maa ab bachee toh aise hi hote hai" (maa kids are like that only )and finally I felt I was normal as other humans ;) pheeewww what a relief to hear that :D :D and suddenly she reminded me of diwali and saree wala incident and I was laughing out loud remembering that ,well at that time I was around 10 years old and I remembered that incident quite well , It was diwali time, No! actually one day before diwali and as usually i hadn't went to school ,I was damn lazy to go to school. Once in a week(during working days -sundays not included)  I always had a bahana (excuse) to how to avoid school, indeed now I can write the 2 volumes book on those bahana's I made during that time. I never liked to go to school although my mom was strict but on this part she was not that much interested. Whether I go to school or not but she made sure that my studies are not getting suffered. My mom always made me study on my holidays for at least 5 hours per day (now thats what we call as torture but anything is legit to get a holiday -so mom's conditions accepted )and my grades were quite good always ;) and so my parents were happy and never forced me to go school when I didn't wanted. But ya only one holiday was allowed in a week after that none of my tantrums worked :P. My teachers always use to get furious when I didn't went to school , but as i was good in studies they just used to scold me for this and leave me ,they even didn't took that seriously :P But  I always use to tell my friends (very proudly) dekha miss mujhe kitna pyaar karti hai ,jab mein nai aati to miss mujhe kitna daant ti  hai  kyunki woh mujhe bauaht pasand karti hai and tereko toh kabhi puchti bhi nai :P :D(miss scolds me because she loves me and misses me alot but she don't even ask about you :P :P) One of my friend rupal always used to get angry red all because my such dialogues :P :P So it was one day before diwali ,my mom had went to temple and as usually I was standing in front of  TV and was dancing like a retard ( I still can't dance :P ) ,I even remember the song it was oh oh jane jaana dundhe tujhe diwana :P

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I had a hard core crush over salman during my childhood I always love watching him and I love his songs too although now it has passed on to ranbir <3 :P :P So the main door was locked as I always use to run out of home and then finding me in a building of 108 houses  was a big deal  for my mom after that,so she always locked the main door and go but people can contact me from the kitchen window ,So i was busy in my dancing business and there is a knock at my window ,I went to my kitchen it was our building sweeper aunty - She smiled at me but i didn't smiled -I stared at her :O(actually as per my mom during those days i never used to smile except for posing in front of camera otherwise I always used to stare people :P :P now please don't ask me why - I have no idea :P ) I asked her yenna venno? (what do you want ?) She told you remember your mom promised to give me a saaree yesterday evening as a diwali gift ? I told yes ,so ? please tell your mom to give me now ,as I will not come tommorow and i don't have anything to wear .... I got really emotional by her words ,I was an emotional fool during my childhood (actually still I am ) As mom was not at home ,so i decided to give her the saaree -I told her to wait there and went to the wardrobe and I took out a really good saare -, I thought she will like it and gave her :P she said  thankyou and went of happily - so- I happy ,she happy ,which indeed made me think will make my mom happy too and i was damn excited to say mom about this incident and thought that mom would be glad because i did such good work :P :P  I was eagerly waiting for her ,i was dancing all over my home like i have went nutz -so mom came - as soon as she opened the door i ran to her screaming Mommmyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy and got wrapped around her (My excitement levels were always at their peak ,when ever i did something different ) My mom was surprised by seeing me so excited she asked babuu (now that's my pet name - no body should laugh on it :P ) what have you done today haan? ( she asked mischeviously) I narrated the whole incident proudly :P to her .After hearing the whole thing she was shocked  and ran to the wardrobe opened it and asked which saaree did you gave to her ? ? (shockingly ) i told mama that blue wali saari which you wored on chachu's (uncle) wedding :P :P and she told "u mad girl (in gujju ufcourse ) that was my fav saaree and I had wored that only twice" and suddenly my maa turned into maa durga with in a fraction of seconds the only diffrence was she had belen in her hand instead of trishul and  I had too run out of the home before she could catch me :P :P i went to gate running then turned and gave her a look of -"catch me if you can"  and  again started running :P :P

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 yesterday was laughing out loud remembering this but that day the same incident was like my last day on this earth :P :P :D