Friday, August 10, 2012

I think its gonna be a never ending wait

Waiting for some one is not easy and its gonna be more worst  when you know that your wait can take your lifetime. Yet you choose to wait ,why ? because for you that person is more worthy than your lifetime wait.
You know that those beautiful memories which you lived together is enough for your whole life to keep your doors open for that person . Although its really painful because ,you can't even tell that person that your wait for him is really taking your life. You can't even explain him the spasm ,you go through when he is not around. And you do all this for his dreams ,because you know its selfish to make him sacrifice his dreams and even harder when you know what his dreams mean to him. You don't want become a hurdle between him and his achievements.
But you also know that this is taking him away from you and you know at a certain point, its gonna affect your relationship badly but still your love for that person makes you stay lip sealed . Even your faith in him starts slowly fading but those memories ,those promises will not let you tear apart that soon .
But at some point of time you will also think , if that person loves you so much,
Why don't he understand the paroxysm which you are going through?
Why can't he envisage that his dreams are slowly breaking you from inside ?
Why don't he realize, what worst you are enduring without him ?
Why he is too stubborn to look beyond his dreams ?
Why don't he visualize ,what's being there on your side ?
For you ,he his your everything but,
Why you are still unaware about what's your place in his life ?
You know if you say ,he will leave everything and comeback to you ,but ,
Why can't he realize all these without saying ?
Why you are supposed to say and explain him everything ?
Why can't he understand your silence ?
And some times it makes you think ,
Will he'll ever be able to understand you beyond your words ?

Today its again raining outside...
All i can wish now is, you to be by my side. 

This season used to be so beautiful with you ...

All now it reminds me is only of the pain ,which i went through.

You promised me that you'll make every path of my life worthwhile ...

But I never knew ,along with you ,you will even take away my smile. 

I know that you are never unfaithful to me ...

But in between your other commitments you lost "us" from you & me.

Still I can feel your essence in this aroma of rain ....

But it makes me sometimes think that, waiting for you is really nothing but vain?




38 comments:

Green Speck said...

Sometimes the wait just goes on, and it's then we learn to move ahead !!!

vinisha said...

@Amrit,,,, yes finally one moves on

magiceye said...

sea of questions

Sabyasachi Patra | Tales from Wild India said...

"But in between your other commitments you lost "us" from you&me."

This sentence is so very true. In the mad rush to cater to our official commitments, we can't give time. Nicely captured.

Peace lily said...

hey its relates me also...m also waiting for him...i miss him in dis rain..al dos Qs u asked..my heart also asks d same..
for me also i gues..its a nvr ending wait..!!

Brijesh said...

Is this reality?
If yes, I would say we are on the same boat, and I can relate each and every word with what is there on my mind since more than two years now..

I must say, you are a good writer and keep writing.

vinisha said...

@magic eye . .....yeah

vinisha said...

@sabyasachi sir.... thankzzz alottt for appreciating

vinisha said...

@peace lily .... i really hopee it don't turn out to be a never ending wait for you ,actuallyyy thisss wass the situation ,my friend was going through ,so just wrote it down by imagining :) good luck

vinisha said...

@brijesh ......it is real but not my reality , my friend is going through this , from my side good luck ahead ,i hope you find the positive answers for your questions soon ......and thankzz alot for appreciation

jaish_vats said...

Feelings well expressed Vinisha!

Vaishali Jain said...

You have captured the emotions of lost love really well, Vinisha. It's when one has too much on hands and is not able to prioritize on relationships, it's then when one grows apart from all things important. Nice write! :)

vinisha said...

@jaish....thankssss alottttttt :D :D

vinisha said...

@vaishali ya ppl often get confused between this things ....thankss alotttt for appreciation :D :D

Nitijita said...

wow...the ur writings convey real feelings from real lives..keep it up!

vinisha said...

@nitija ...thankzzz alottt for the appreciation :D :D

Neenu said...

You wrote this article by just seeing the situation your friend was going through?? Wow!! You are a really good writer.. the words are right on the point!:)
And yes.. love is weird.. As some poet rightly said,"Love is a pain without a name"!
Keep blogging Vinisha..!! :D

vinisha said...

@neenu ... ,really glad to hear such words .....thats really sweet of you ...ya love is actually a pain without a name ........thankzz alott for appreciating :) :)

Ranita Sinha said...

So very true and painful..but aren't they away to give us a comfortable life??..but still its very painful..:(..well expressed..

vinisha said...

@ranita mam ....ya true they are away from us ,for us ,for our better life ,and that's why we don't complain but these questions are bound to arise at some point of time ....but indeed its really painful P.S...Thankzzz alot :)

Panchali said...

'But it makes me sometimes think that, waiting for you is really nothing but vain?'---- Uncertainty is part of life.
Dealing with it may be easier said than done,but hope for the best and be prepared to face the worst!
A wonderfu piece, Vinisha.

vinisha said...

@panchali mam - certainly,uncertainity is a part of life ,- thankzz alot for appreciating and for your wonderful advice too :) :)

Namrata Johori said...

Dese wrds are so vry true...... N al i felt aftr reading it....dat someone actly penned down my flngs........trust me d pain sometimes become unbearable....n d writer is such a good one...superb wrk:-)

vinisha said...

@namrata ......thankzzz alott ,just tried to understand the situation and penned down the words which came in my mind......

Anonymous said...

so true......"pain without a name"..

Arti said...

Very touching, I could feel every word that you wrote here. Great job! :)

vinisha said...

@anonymous - thank you :)

vinisha said...

@Arti ,thankzzzzzz alottttttttttt ya :) :)

Saru Singhal said...

Longing! I can't hold onto something for so long but may be it is a strength of true love.

Last lines are beautiful!

mysay.in said...

he /she who moves on had never loved-Mind it ! one may portray living a casual happy life probably partying or getting married to some other guy or girl but if its love it will never fade away..not a single day , even after years have passed by, would let u forget him/her and thats what my friend it is love.... till ur last bloody breath .. u wish to let this person know ... regardless u seemed or behaved to be the most selfish.. its him/her.. u love , loved and will love the most,forever ! It was paining while reading ur lines .. very nice post !

vinisha said...

@saru mam... thankzzz alot , yeah its only the strength of true love which makes one to hold onto relationship :)

vinisha said...

@mysay.in - one moves on in a sense is they'll lose all the hope of their loved one coming back to them and by time they'll stop expecting and waiting too but if it is true love,ya they can never give that place to someone else in their life for sure.
P.S - thankzzz alott for appreciating:) :)

Ghazala Hossain said...

Love and life will be good from here on, keep the faith and never be bitter :)

vinisha said...

@ghazala ya ,i told my friend to do the same :) :) Thankzzz :D

samyyyr.com said...

Beautifully Expressed. :)
I could actually visualize each description mentioned in there.

vinisha said...

@samyyyr.com- thankszzz alott

A Frivolous Analyser said...

At times the wait is never ending ...

vinisha said...

@ A frivolous analyser - yeah true :(